You cannot beat the odds

As I looked into the mirror trying to arrange my thinning hair a strange thought crossed my mind – “I’m getting old”. I have always been an under achiever but like most people I told myself that “It is okay, you will make a better life for yourself”. Now I’m in a situation where one wrong move can drive me into the depths of pittance for the rest of my life and this point I have decided to take on another worry. No it is not that of aging as looks have never been my forte, it is the concept of falling in love, getting married etc. Now with limited intelligence, minimal money, mediocre looks and past filled with failures my choices would be limited.

I think the concept of love is over-rated; it is what I would consider emotional investment. The reason one would want to love somebody else ( Even if we compensate for physical infatuation and social pressure) is that in case something goes wrong someday this person would stand up for you. There is also this case of “sense of belonging”. We all want to be wanted (I think it is a matter of ego) and we make an agreement with another person who would work with you to make you feel wanted. There might be a few cases of unconditional love which cannot be explained by my logic but most of the time we don’t know the whole scenario and hence I think it is safe to consider them as anomalies.

Although I find the concept of love hypocritical I don’t have a major problem playing along as it is the norm of the society. The fact that I have to work hard to make the girl fall in love with me and continue to do so in the future sounds like a tedious task. So I have to work 55 hours a week (Middle management works 55 hours although the job description says it is 40), help clean the house, raise kids and work towards the relationship – to achieve what? Well to be stowed away in an old age home. I don’t know about you but this does not sound enterprising to me. Here is my solution, screw the love aspect; marry somebody because we don’t know who is going to turn out as what in the future. There are too many variables to determine the partner’s character, so start by assuming that your life will be a living hell. Well if things go on normally you would be okay because this was what you expected and hey by chance you get really lucky life might be fun for you.

We have a very short life, so don’t waste time looking for the perfect person. Selecting a spouse is like playing the raffle and you cannot estimate the odds here because nobody tells the truth about their relationships. Just pick one and hope to god it works out for you. I figured this out and hence I have decided to write this stupid blog and play solitaire than look for my “soul mate”

Peace